I Hope the Postal Service Can Get This to You.

Dear Petit(e) Somebody,

We were all really looking forward to meeting you. We were excited to arrange things for you and found ourselves always thinking of all of the cool places that we would take you. If you were a girl, I pictured you to be about 2 or 3 years old with your little curly bouncy ponytails and sundress with baby pink chucks on. If you were a boy, I imagined you always drooling and jumping onto anything that was within your reach. I thought about your future and what your favorite book might have become. It was exciting to think of the influences that we would have on each other. I pictured your smile and your piercing cries because Mommy told you no. I was excited to be a part of your life. Well, the universe decided that the tension was too much for you. So gravity pulled you away and now I think that we have all gotten used to our old but different days. Even though you never made it here, you still managed to put a smile on my face.

There were so many times where I regretted the way things ended between us. I felt that the right thing to do was to keep coming back and proving my loyalty because someday you would need a shoulder to cry on. I wanted you to know that I would always love you and that you didn't have to try so hard at being strong because you had a strong support system that was willing to give you the softest pillow to fall on. But you insisted on pushing us all away to the point to where I actually can't stand to even think of you. 

Is it okay with you that now we mean nothing to each other?

It's Been A While. . .

So I figured that I'd come back to the blogger world for the new year of 09. So far I believe that this year has the most potential to be better than the previous year. A lot has happened since the last time I've written, but no need to go backwards, I'll just speak for my present. . 

I woke up to a text that just made me smile. You can be a million miles away, or we could go months without speaking. But the moment I saw ppsst in my inbox, it gave me butterflies. . This new year is all about new beginnings and things for most, and yes, I have my new year's resolutions, but I would like this year to be about fixing the things that unraveled with time.