Just Fall

I look forward into the distance without blinking. I stare into a remote place until it burns. The refusal to blink is only giving my tears time to well up, become too heavy, and race down my cheeks. I want to blend into the distance but I cannot advance until I trust that she will catch me when I fall blindly into her arms. The game of trust is fickle. I've fallen onto the ground too many times and I shouldn't want to do it again. But I want to trust that she will catch me when I fall backwards into her arms. I fell backwards before only to be surprised that she wasn't there to catch me. She was suppose to be my support but instead I just fell through the clouds for another to catch. I only want to be able to trust that she cares enough to catch me. 

Just fall.